the raindrop

2006-09-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hellos world, this blog is undergoing testing.

the many words. =)

2006-06-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

let me guess, a wild wild guess.
the lastest para on your blog before this date, is for bernice righty?
hahahahaaha.

in love with another one not the current.
i see you've found someone newer than new.
wished it was me, still as always.
glad, and appleased that you are happy,
with whoever or whoever.
and whenever, i'll stand here if you need.
as a friend, a confidant. =))

closer a friend, i'd like to be.
get back into your life, proactively.
then, i'll get to know you more.
i've lost my roots of the "jo" i used to know.
and all most important, be there.

this is another of the many thank-yous,
i'm glad you're the first, lovelove

many love songs, remind me of you.
esp those you sung me to sleep or those to addicted to.

to my dearest finest most perfect happy apple,
miss and love you. =))

=))

2006-05-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

hehs.
i'm happy that you're happy.
and you're happy that i'm happy too.
right?

my holidays are here to stay, and i'm going to play and mug hard.
i still mug for you. maybe, temasek poly. =))

smile like the way you do, silly.
i love that gorgeous line spreaded across your face.

p/s. i went to the art room that day. filled with memories. it made me smile.

thank you.

hot "hunk" in pic

2006-05-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

you're hot. the picture, made me take a step back. you are looking super duper great these days. i wished you're mine. hahaha. sheesh, to my grades. i'm sorry you had to be the one i disappoint.
i really wished i had someone by my side now, like you did then. but, i know my battle is over. there's another one besides her whom your heart skips a beat for. i'm long forgotten.

on a lighter note,
i'm glad we are still closest of friends. buddy, i don't want to lose you as. and we shall stay this way, if not further.
still, give me the moral support.

tomorrow's chinese o's.
pray for me.
go get tanned. and make me green.

p/s, i swear you've grown taller.
pp/s, bernice is pretty. =)

miss you.

jo, cheryl

2006-05-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

jo,

this is way too abrupt and far too much to ask from you. it's just that i'd still hope that i'd be able to find comfort in you. this place i live in is ugly, too ugly. as you can sense, i'm not in the best mood cheryl could put on. maybe, you can be the shoulder i still am able to lean on. i'm still not the stringest yet. my weakness is too giving which always overcomes me.
can we meet up soon. i'ver got loads to share and you've got loads to update. take cares.

p/s, if you're thinking if i'm attached. i'm not.

cheryl.

billy's, supposed to be.

2006-05-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

an email, i have yet to send.
an email, you've yet to receive.
hopefully, you'll be gleaming.
otherwise, you can just delete it.
for perhaps, more space?

i'd be lying if i said you didn't change.
alrights, maybe because i'm no longer the special someone.
or that particular listening you used to confine in.
perhaps, i'll be of help in the near future.

more carbs in your meals please.
take care of your health.

almost waited at billy's for you.

wonder if you'd realise the date today. a year ago.
i was whom you love.

smile. you have a gorgeous smile.
i'll be here if anything. =)

bruises&diets.

2006-05-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

gosh! i'm sending out a warning.
to those who see jo tan, of tp imd year one.

please, look after her for me. on my behalf.
i'm handicapped sitting here, unable to help.
make sure she eats and eats well.
make sure she rests and rests well.
gawd, fucking making me worried.
and those bruises.
i wish i was her eyes. (though my eyesight bad enough.)
her eyes, i want to be.
take care of her, please.
help her rub those blues and the blacks.
kiss them all okay.

an angel, who needs to get her job done.

morally, i accept anything as long as the faith is from within.
i'm your silly alrights?
and you're my darling-est of angels.

i miss.

my A1 grade.

2006-05-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

you love her. thats why you did that.(though regret filled you later on.) you love her. thats why you don't say you miss me or say anything when i try to (in a way.) flirt with you. you love her. thats why you are still with her. you love her. thats why we are drifting so far apart. you love her.

no one say you didn't. i'm just saying you do. more than i ever realise.
but you didn't have to (in a way.) raise your voice at me. it wasn't called for.
still, i think i love you.

loser, i am.

the best news in the world i have yet to share.
daren't text, daren't call. afraid of unwanted troubles for you.
you were supposed to smile widely, with arms wide open you receive me.
yet, failed.

this blog, seems dustier than ever. haloscan ain't working.
because, i guess, you love her too much.

all the best to danna. cheers to you.

love, as always.

ohh,
and if you are still curious. i mean if.
i got an a1 for my chemistry. (i do hope you smile.)
it's okay if you didn't

shattered neos.

2006-05-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

gorgeous.
really, please don't say sorry anymore.
it hurts me to hear those words.
i'll love you all the same. =))
the neos, we'll take new ones to make it up.

like i told you last night,
either i find someone who treats me like you do. and know me that well.
or i want shane.
the former seems more realistic.
i'll stick to that. =))

one day, just maybe one day.
we'll be.
well, who are we to speak the future.
right?

you still owe me a surprise.

pp/s, weeeee! you just called me baby. =))
and silly.

lovelove.

can you don't flirt with bernice. please. =xx

love letters.

2006-05-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

a long time ever since you have received a love letter from me.
a sudden urge to write one.
a moment of thought i'm lost between.

here goes.

dearest gorgeous,
ever since you have left me in that state of confusion on that certain day in the month of december, the 23rd. my heart ripped right out, my mind contained nothing but memories of us you&i. my body hollow yet heavy. that's how i felt, my life turned upside down.
you stepped into my life, on the 25th of april. that fateful day. the silliness in all emotions, i knew i was in love. my kissed perpatuately given to you. my heart stepped up its aderenaline rush. then, i became all airy fairy. learnt the meaning of love. taught the meaning of cherish. asking for nothing every night i pray. only thanking those of above, for sending just an angel into my life. yes, like i said that hundred and one times, you're my angel. always, my angel.
memories, of which was left.
kisses in dark cinemas. runs to the toilet after movies. my birthday outing. shared ice creams, with flavours i almost detested. mugging sessions with cute drawings. intimate moments. waiting-for-cheryl in the hut. art-room kiss. childish running around, for you love to bully me. stupid fighting on the bed that ends up all sexy. secret cookie baking. void-deck meet-ups. winks across parade squares. smiles that melt me upside down. note-book passing. looking alike in photos.
the nicest of life, the happiest of times. they had to come to end didn't they. sooner or later, never now and forever. and so, you&i's story ended while you started life anew. problems never stopped knocking on our doors. yet, at the same time, memories still created. like, jellybeans.fitness corner.
jo gorgeous, i miss you. fucking hell, i miss you. like i never did before. the kisses.the hugs.the killer-smiles.the ***. i miss you, all of you, everything. no word can convey to you. how much you mean to me.

you pieced me up nicely.
you wrapped me up sweetly.
you loved me.

and, i love you.

loving, cheryl.
(15.05.06;2.20)

no idea why you said sorry. i want to see you smile.
maybe, we'll still have our billy bomber date on the 25th.
all just as, promised.

argues

2006-05-08T21:53:00.000+08:00

the arguments.

realise they don't occur during the seven minus two days.
but instead, after that.
weird, this world coming to.

maybe, i learnt to not be so giving.
learning that that's one of the many factors of which how i lost you.
the mistakes. the good the bad.
my burdens, these days.

seriously, you have no idea.
how much you have been missed.

when you have a little time
crack the story of the little girl and her lollipops.
and or otherwise, miss me.

just a second or two. let me take charge of your mind.
=))

danna, i really can't wait to see you dance.
despite all else.

you&i;jellybean essay

2006-05-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

a story you&i had came up together.
i love it and hope you do too.
thanks for the 38/40 grade.
you're welcome for my help.

it's been long since i helped.
with anything in you and your new life.
so ya, i'm glad.

so yesterday, don't you think.
it used to be you helping me with science.
me helping you with maths.
now, we finally did something that concerns school together.

together.
it's been long since i used on you.

glad that you and her are good
jealous all the same
esp when i read of places of which were ours.
you&i's.

i'll accept anything, cos to me.
you seem happy.

like the cherry apples that brighten my every bad day.
they remind me of our first kiss.
my first kiss.
the awkwardness on sports day.
the lasting, loving few months.

all i love.

all i said goodbye to.
they ain't yours now, i tell myself.

be happy. i love my danna happy.

i'm impt

2006-05-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

» JO ╜ : sweeeet. : ) i love girlfriend. says: (1:09:17 AM)
A Person I Most Admire and Respect

Think of a person who made a positive difference in your life. This person can be anyone-perhaps a parent, a teacher, a historical figure, a friend, a leader, or a relative.

To make this exercise as meaningful as possible, write the actual name of this person in the text Box below.

» JO ╜ : sweeeet. : ) i love girlfriend. says: (1:09:28 AM)
i feel like writing your name

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fuck hell.
am i still that important. i couldn't believe my eyes.
i swear i can't

things change, people too.
when it goes back, if it does. nothing of such will happen.
i swear. crossed heart.

you really damn god important.

unwanted

2006-05-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

enjoy your new school life.
stay happy and take care.

i know time to you now is fucking precious.
but,
i still hope some would be spared for me.

somethings are bothering me.

stress is getting into me too.

will you be there.
to wish me the best of lucks and give me loving hugs.

it's not words that i want to hear.

jealousy

2006-05-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

examinations for this week and next.
knowing damn well i have no right to feel this way.

but, i fucking jealous.
urgh.
never mind.

what rights do i have. =((
i should remind myself that more often.

luckily, there's still this space.
to just rant all my feelings. throw it all on you.
or at least, tell you how i'm coping.

i'm damn stressed out. and i wish every single night.
a secret wish.

my wish.
my secret wish.
may it come true one fine day.

tell me you miss me, and mean it.

for now, i hope that poly life doesn't change you.
neither does it to your principles.
seeing you rushing assignments hurts me so.
take care my love.

"i'll never fall for another" i think to myself since the day my eyes fell on you.
with love.

hugs, the angel.

social studies.

2006-05-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

to what extent is the importance of cheryl in your life. explain your answer.

mornings.

2006-05-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

talks should start up here. i think i should add haloscan somewhere on this page.

then, when you have something unhappy, happy, troubling to tell me.
you blurt everything there.
especially on days where i'm not online.

good idea?

i hope you love your nails.
painted by yours truly.
it looks great right?
take care of it alrights.

sunday mornings with you. seem so yeaterday.
makes me look back, and miss you&i.
love you larh jo.

maybe, you had fun too. and enjoyed my company

more soon okay?
i miss you so.

the night. spoilt my perfect morning to last the day.
i spoilt it.

hazel talks about you.

2006-04-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

breakfast on sunday it is. =))
(later on, i mean.)

this, i have to say. i'm fucking jealous.
she talked about you today again!
urgh.
i shouldn't feel this way, i know
sorry.

still my danna.

2006-04-28T18:33:00.000+08:00

happy tell-a-joke day!!

i hope we are alright.
you are important to me.
used to be, and still is. really really really

sunday, hopefully.
i want to see how you look, smell how you have been.
voices and pictures are nothing compared to you sitting in front of me.

you are still and always my danna.
this way or that, you made me.
the me who i am these days. like the you i have made.
though, remould by another.

glad that i was the one who stood there for you.
finally, i realised how you felt last year.
suddenly, i silently wish someone(namely, you.) to be here for me.
the feeling of support and special love, is all i need now.

my friendships are fine. don't you worry.
the irritants who looked down on me have stopped. don't you worry.

great big hugs. great big big hugs. =))
hopefully, life for you is going the way you want it to be.
in my prayers to those above, i still thank you(my blessing.) twice.

our secrecy

2006-04-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

and to the certain extent, we are each others.
and this close, for you to be MINE. and me yours.
and the secrecy of it all; smiles deep down.

images of you have diminished, yet still existent in memory and thought.

there's something needing to be said,
thank you. knowing well enough this has always been used by me to thank you.
really, thank you is all that i can ever protray.
the thank you was for the faith you had in me.
it instilled a sense of belonging and being love.
you were there, finally for once, when i needed you.
well, i thank you for that too.
lastly, thank you for all your lucks and lucky hugs before papers.

yet,
one thing i can never bring myself to do, is to blame you.
no matter at how wrong you are or were.

much love.
i have to admit, i miss you and us. =)

sudden misses.

2006-04-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

friendship problems, they are such a chore. detest, backstabbing and all it's components along with it. tell me what's wrong with this world. these people. hypocritical, really.
ohh wells, i'm just those being dragged in.

and really, i wished to tell you.

my drive in life. is you nevertheless.
i'm desperate.
you got me addicted to your words. they are wise enough for me.
the hugs horridly missed. hell sweet tight hugs at the waist.
omg, i'm soo tearing.

miss your naggy voice pestering me to workhard.
miss your lovely stories of which i haven't heard for so long.
miss your crazy laughter which makes me guffaw like mad.
miss your sweet words of encouragement.
miss your silly acts and precious snaps. esp those specially for me.
i miss you and you alone.

where are you?

good bestest best friends.

2006-04-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

i love shaker fries!!
don't you?

jo&cheryl loves shakerfries!! wee.
we are loyal worshippers.
hahaha.

well, may you&i stay in this peaceful and happy way.
good bestest best friends. always.
alright?
i'm soo glad no question was waved off. =))

i'm thinking of someone now.
guess who. =))

you make me strive for a better day.
thank you.

your prize, -GREAT BIG HUG.
lets add an "s". -GREAT BIG HUGS!!

much love to you,
CHERYL.

loves.

2006-04-13T17:04:00.000+08:00

i kissed you. =))
for the first time, in a long time.
for the first time, with your piercing.

loves it when i'm held close.
loves it when you gaze into my eyes.
loves it when we cuddle after much struggle.
loves it when i smell like you.
loves it when you gel your hair.

love you, my ck be. =))

now, currently i'm gleaming like some silly baby. (opps.)
imagine you didn't read that.

and i still can't imagine calling you babe. HANDSOME, it soo much nicer.
no?

i got a question. (don't wave it off, cause i know you have seen it.)
do you think we'll ever be back together?
all i want to know is the truth.

you soo made my day and my long weekend.

you missed me.

2006-04-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

none of the crude words like "you don't have to see my face", "up to you la. i've got no say" or "my words aren't important as before already."

your words are important to me. every word.
no matter how much our status change.
my comfort zone you are. then and now. always.
never once was it doubt, neither has its placed moved.
cause only with you, i'm true in portraying my feeling.
in your presence, my true essence spills.
trust me, read these lips of mine.
you are first thought of every down or up in life.
always wanted you to be first to be informed my every event.
good or bad, bad or good. i want you there.
be it a lover, friend, confident or companion.

you know i love you. even as a friend. i do.
missing the days where we were happily in love.
yet moving on, in order not to obstruct any events those above planned for us.

sugary treats.

2006-04-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

our sugary treats.
knowing i love chocolates, you'd never fail to cheer me up with one. though however much you detest my sweet tooth.
you are still most saccharine, to me.

discreetly, i missed you.
i missed that precious saccharine moments spent. they are now, untouched by reality. placed in a gold tinted box. with much agility, placed on the top shelf. there, is where you stand in my life now. however much, your name shall not be in my speech. neither in my writings. but fear not, they'll be within me. i'll miss you. as promised months ago, on some fateful night. your word, you are allowed to not honour. but i will, honour mine.

once again
i thank you. if its possible one day, i hope you'd take my results with me. like how i did in the case of yours.
may you, give my your bestest wishes before every paper. with hugs at the end of each text. it'll be the best of any form of any encouragement. you are who i still love. no matter how much i deny to everyone else.

I LOVE YOU. my prettyface. =))

my last words.

2006-04-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

for you,
thank you for all the things you have sacrificed for me.
thank you for the love you showered and spared for me.
thank you. you know you are the best to me.

my ears are still here for listening when your down.
my shoulders are still here to cry on.
you know, i'll stay by your side when you need me most.
though i doubt that there'll be a next time where we'll talk like before.

through all these jumbled thoughts. these are the only fumbled words.
all i can say now is, i wish you to be at the peak of your joy.
with the smiles so wide it can turn any sad day bright.

once again, thank you and i'm sorry
i know i caused more problems than i should have.
take care.

for you i will.

2006-04-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

just leave me alone to rant and rave.
a little confused. a little hurt. a little anger. a little jealous. a little of everything. desperate need for ventings. jolly well knowing things can't be turned back, knowing nothing will ever be the same. haven't you wondered, why i still hold on. yes, i'm afraid. afriad of getting lost in this chaotic world. afraid of crying alone at night. afraid of nitty gritty messy problems. i'm no stronger than you are. neither am i any much more without you. i'm dependant on you, my pillar of strength and encouragement. still, to this date. now that you've walked off with another, i'm stranded. like some lost puppy. however many times you tried pulling me up, it fails. just like how i tried to get life in place. like i said, things are never going to be the same again. my drags must have bothered you more than that burden you already carrying. well, i'm sorry.

like as if we are together

2006-04-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

new skin fresh from the oven!!

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS' DARLS!
i wished you first. weee.
meeting you later, making up for failed meet-up
=))) she's sweetest.

secret: I'M FEELING SOO LOVED BY YOU. opps.

love love.

happiness.

2006-03-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

I'M LIKE SOO HAPPY NOW. FEELING LOVED AND BLISSED.

anyone want to tell me the reason why. here's the reason:
I'M ON THE PHONE. WITH THAT SILLY GORGEOUS SWEETIE NEXT STREET. =))
sounds yummy right? dont be jealous. hahahaha

I'M HAPPY LARH. COS OF YOUR VOICE. COS OF YOUR LAUGHTER. YES, HAPPY WHEN YOU ARE. =))
thanks gorgeous. i love you like so much. this much. =))

unwanted.

2006-03-28T06:18:00.000+08:00

sheesh. i dislike it when things like this happen. its so like, now i know where the hell i bloody stand in your life. i ain't anyone THAT important anymore. okay, so you are attached, but does the word "ATTACHED"= "no life with other friends" sighs. i'm feeling bloody pathetic. school ain't good, home sucks. now the only person i'm able to turn to is you. and i have to wait for that phone call. its alrights with the daily nitty gritty stuff of which telling you or not is a choice. but when i most needed that listening ear, you my happy apple failed. terribly hurt now.

THE FEELING OF BEING UNWANTED. AND ALONE. sucks.

why is it you cant see, how important you are to me?

and, if you are going to say "i'm sorry, i'm causing hurt to you and we should not talk" or anything along those lines, think again how many i am able to turn to. NO ONE, but you. sighs. it's pathetic.

call me soon

2006-03-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

CALL ME SOON SWEETS. SIGHS. I MISS YOU BLOODY HELL MUCH. AND THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE IS SOO CHAOTIC I DON'T KNOW WHO TO TURN TO BUT YOU.

I NEED YOUR VOICE. TO CALM MYSELF DOWN.
I NEED YOUR ACCOMPANIMENT.
COS, ONLY YOU CARE THAT MUCH. SIGHS

if only.

silliness

2006-03-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

a conversation of a silly one offering to help in my biology
---

me: okay! "the first indication of pregnancy is a missed period. why is it impt that menstrual periods shoudl stop during pregnancy?"
me: there?
jo: because
jo: EVERYTIME U COME MENSES RIGHT.......
jo: YOUR VAGINA HOLE WILL BE BIGGER. TRUST ME ITS TRUE. THEN WHEN U GO TOILET AND DO YOUR BUSINESS ESP THOSE REAL BIG BUSINESS THAT YOU FIND IT HARD TO GET OUT OF UR ASS, U WILL TEND TO FORCE IT OUT. HENCE, IF U FORCE IT OUT TOO HAR DWHILE HAVING UR MENSES, THE BABY COMES OUT AS WELL.WHICH IS OF COURSE REALLY DANGEROUS AND REALLY MESSY TO HANDLE.
jo: NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND ??

---
things this silly does to make me roll on the floor guffawing away.
i love you larh ar.

sometimes, content isn't important, its the effort and time to produce an effect. it made me laugh alright. =)) thanks sweets. ever since god knows when, this silly always willing to help. including subjects like biology (which she didnt even take) how sweet. jealous?

love jo!

2006-03-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

I LOVE JO I LOVE JO I LOVE LOVE LOVE JO TAN!!! WEETS. I AM NEVER LETTING ANY OF THESE SLIP FROM MEMORY OR ERASED FROM HISTORY. ITS ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS SPENT!! WEETS. CHERYL IS GOING CRAZY THINKING ABOUT JO =XX THAT HANDSOME PRETTYFACE OF MINE!! WEETS. I LOVE JO. -NODS- THIS NIGHT, 19.03.06, WILL BE ADDED TO THE HAPPY MOMENTS SPENT WITH YOU. MY SWEETIE! JUST MADLY FALLING HEAD OVER HEELS FOR YOU.

SILLY PICTURES. SILLY GUFFAWS. SILLY US. SILLY TALKS. I LOVE YOU

i dont know who will read this, but i want the world to know. I LOVE JO! YES YES I DO LOVE JO!! hugs that silly one.

UPSandDOWNS

2006-03-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

CHERYL IS HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
YES YES SOO HAPPY =))

love it when you sleep looking all serene and at peace. with no worries written all over. it makes me wonder if i am in that sweet dream of yours. just so silly and cute.
love it when you held me within you, holding my waist so tightly. whispering something secretly. bringing me into your world, entrusting me into your secrets.
love it when you clutched my fingers and pulled me close. making me uneasy that such a slight initiative could send butterflies into my stomach. sweet!
love it when you started those childish games, making me. laugh like a fool. kicking and pushing. the thought of no other except you in my mind. only you would do silly stuff.
love it when your gaze falls on me. just staring lovingly into mine. what more can i ask for. i only am able to thank those above.
love it when your shoulders are my pillows. that few minutes seemed to me like an hour. thinking twice if i should wake you up. making me wish i could sleep beside you always.

AND THE NOT SO HAPPY THINGS. =((

promises promises promises. i admit seeing something that i dont think i should have. my heart just bloody sank. right down. way way down, right to the bloody living hell of me. telling myself not to bother, i just cant help but think back. why do these things just happen to me.
seeing it believing and i shall have no choice but to believe. no excuses to yourself. facts are facts.

LOOK AT THE BITCH GETTING JEALOUS.

[THE ABOVE WAS RETYPED MANY TIMES.]

GEE, I AM MISSING YOU CRAZY.

can you be my girlfriend?

2006-03-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

something off my chest

this morning woke up with a certain thought on my mind. this thought was silly, even more silly of me to let my imagination to run really wild. well, it kept me happy deep down. REALLY REALLY HAPPY. thank you sweets. i finally was able to pen down my thoughts to you through msn. something off my chest but now on yours. knowing the answer, knowing the end result. i still told you, stupid cheryl. well, at least i know im being missed more. at least you do love me. at least i still get to get to hear your voice. at least..
are they just excuses to cover up whatever i am missing? or am i really just lucky to have you here for me? both, maybe.
YOUR THE PRETTYFACE THAT I WANT. i just cant seem to stop myself from loving you. and i dont know why.

that little wish will be kept a wish until the day fulfilled.

shit, i am crying bad. sorry, i just LOVE you.

why iLOVEyou

2006-03-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

i love you talking about yesterday, like yesterday. i love you cuddling within those arms of yours. i love you when we are really close, physically. i love you saying you enjoyed your night with me. i love you knowing i made you happy. i love you making me feel loved by you once over. i love you chatting with me about anything under the moonlight. i love you playing childish games. i love you when we start running around the playground. i love you when im this close to kissing you, and get the kiss. i love you when you smile. i love you allowing my gaze to fall on those eyes. i love you when we get all horny. i love you telling stories, especially over and over. i love you sharing cheesecakes. i love you making me wait for the day to end knowing you'd be standing before me. i love you when you say the three precious words. i love you telling me i have got pretty eyes. i love you playing with my face. i love you getting silly. i love you hyper with me. i love you acting all know-it-all, when sometime you dont. i love you making me blush. i love you planning things to do. i love you getting serious. i love you getting jealous over the silliest things. i love you teaching me things. i love you protecting me. i love you for doing all the right things at the right time. i love you for understanding every feeling. i love you for saying i take nice pics. i love you when you start nagging at me not to eat chocolates. i love you concern about me. i love you worried about my health. i love you sitting there with me. i love you at work, yes i peeped. i love you texting me now and then. i love you singing to me on the phone. i love you designing pics. i love you sleeping beside me, all cute. i love you making me say hello to that ducky. i love you competing who will win neopets with me. i love you kissing me behind the door. i love you killing every moment of loneliness. i love you walking me home. i love you on long bus rides with me. i love you playing netball. i love you sharing ice cream of flavours you like. i love you snapping photos of us. i love you studying hard.

I LOVE YOU. all the memories and things i love about you are more than these. but still, you know I LOVE YOU, MY PRETTYFACE. girl, only you control the joy and tears. when i said "you are my everything", i meant every word.

gorgeous eyes.

2006-02-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

cherale's back! nice way of spelling my name right?

PRETTYFACE!!
I MISS YOU.
I LOVE YOUR EYES PLEASE.
nice cute small gorgeous. LOVELY, just lovely

i hope everythings fine. dont like you pms-ing
IM YOUR PERSONALISED PUNCHING BAG, THE TYPE WHICH MAKE YOU LAUGH, hopefully
DONT BE UPSET OVER SMALL STUFF, arguments about me is a no-no

JUST SMILE, AND LAUGH LIKE YOU USED TO

ENJOYING THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES
they just made me go goo-goo-ga-ga
GORGEOUS, i love you

jealousy im feeling, your feeling it too
on the same SINKING boat
-laughs-

LOVE YOU LARH. misses way way wayy too much. XD

my reaslisation

2006-02-27T06:37:00.000+08:00

I REALISED SOMETHING, BEING HAPPY FOR YOU MAKES ME HAPPIER
YES YES, IM GONNA BE THAT HAPPY, HYPER GIRL AGAIN XD
I WANT TO BE THAT DEAR FRIEND TO YOU, NOW AND ALWAYS
ALL I CAN BE NOW IS A FRIEND, AND I WANT IS TO STAY AS THAT

SMILE FOR ME =))
HERES SOMETHING FOR YOU. =)))

LOVES AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING

twice

2006-02-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

twice. two times. twice
REALLY GLAD.

next time, maybe two of us
need to talk to YOU

she's pretty, though it hurts to hear you say that
but i rather you like her that whoever now

SPEECHLESS-thats what you made me

i dodged every eye contact possible, confused.
totally lost

handsome eyes, i love.
pretty laughter, i enjoy
loving heart, all i need

I MISS YOU, ex-~~GIRLFRIEND~~.

ex-GIRLFRIEND

2006-02-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU, GIRL.
sighs.

im such a pain in the arse, i know
FUCK! IM HATING LIFE NOW.

i cant believe im saying this "BE MINE?"
knowing i will neglect you, its my fault to pop the question

SOMETHING IN ME IS DYING
THE LIFE IS EXTINGUISHING
WHATEVER LARH AR!

HATE MYSELF, im such a chore.

SORRY.

missing you, as usual

2006-02-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

i bought a adidas shirt today!!
seriously wondering what your reaction would be when you see it
i doubt you will though =((

seriously miss you and your voice
sorry, if i've been suan-ing you on the phone
i dont know any other way to make you smile or cheerup
at least with these extras, maybe you'll think of me
a while longer will be good

i wished we could meet
something says i shouldnt
someone will see, maybe not her
and she'll find out

rumours spreading around,
"cheryl is such a third party please. bitch"
like whose the third party larh, BITCH!
sorry.

wondering if your friendster captions are still about me
the last three pics esp
tell me soon, show me a sign

went home really late, hoping you'd call to meet up
guess you are staying over
well, have fun.

the feelings are still there
loving missing thinking
like never before
sighs.

say you love me and mean it.

cheryl the lesbian

2006-02-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!
i just realise im blogging here as much as there
guess i just got loads to tell you
can only get you here

though i SUPERLY hate and dislike her
i think she may be the right one

you like NEVER cut yourself cause of her
omg, we even before together also cut alr
like im have caused hurt to you! and you inflicted pain on yourself
-shakes head- really think shes getting better and better as your girl
all the best sweetie, wishing you best

found out that many asked if i was les
shocked at the people named please
not mentioning who told me larh
but people who asked:
marcus they all, joselyn they all
i think a lot of people guessed too =x
now, darlings also say i got les look! hahahaha

believing in love, all the same
just unsure that i'll find anyone like you
realised, you are like the more handsome bungs!
=D =D =D
stop smiling to yourself as you read please

personal message, from me to you,
handsome. i realised i need to talk desperately to you these days. the sms-es are lesser, conversations colder, night chats quieter. so here's the place where i can share my joys and sadness [thou i most likely wont] with you.
im afraid of friendship problems. esp without you, everything seems worst. i dont know what to do now. lizhong isnt on good terms with me. twins are disliked by pat,jovi,hazel. syab disliked by hazel and pat. im only not very happy with adeline, syab, lizhong a little larh. but must admit lizhong is kind of getting too much. sighs. im like to be blamed here again. she hates me and i know it
ohh wells, enough about them. how's life going on about? tell me more evenful things. with or without her, i want to know more how things are going on in your life. cos im kpo, and i want to hear stories you tell me. i miss lots of stories. =D their nice, esp when its you telling them.
i really miss your singing please. i just miss your voice in general
take care, rmb to tell me more okay? smile
i miss us, imu, i miss us

last goodbyes, decision made

2006-02-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

goodbye, my handsome
goodbye, my true love
goodbye, my precious one

thank you, handsome
your welcome, handsome
i miss us, handsome

miss you so
love you so

that last hug
that last kiss
when was the first

for all the time, concern, care. from the bottom of my heart i thank you
encouragements from you, never fail to push me a little harder
i will thrive for the best, for you

smiling once again. knowing that i was yours and you were mine
at least its good to know, ONCE UPON A TIME

great memories i should say
not a moment regretted
every second enjoyed

decisions made, never to be regretted
this time, all i want for valentine's day is you to be happy
smiling widely, happily true from deep down

thats the best valentine's day gift. though you still owe me one

devoted when attached, flirt when not
am i like that?

i really love you, jo

2006-02-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

airport to mug that day, familar surroundings i should say
reminded me of you, easy it was to settle in knowing you are near
happiness ytd. meeting up with you always was great
really really missed those days. ytd was like one of them
thank you.

last night you and your girl argued. argued for many reasons of which i dont know about. cant comment, no comment. unsure to be worried, sad, happy or just wait there for you to lend my listening ear. i know, deep down, things will never be the same. unsure how you feel these days. sometimes, its just feels so true. other times, there seems to be a glass pane making things so blurred. sighs.

tell me how you feel again please.
what you writing, what you saying
is cutting me really deep. deep deep down

i just seem to be in love with you still
wonder if you feel the same way
just disappointed, hurt, terribly lost

im weak and empty without you here by me.

reminising

2006-02-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

i still rmb that time you doing o level artpiece, you dont let me ttouch your paints and all.
another time, we draw each others hands. play love care smile laugh and kiss all in the same room
nice memories wonderful smiles first loves i miss you and me as one

reminising too many times a day
these causes pathetically fat salty droplets in those hazel brown things

stadium while running felt your presence
could feel you encouraging me like always
supporting and standing by me
it was one of the significant days
i love sports day last year

simple lunches and the rare dinners at that place
that special area we almost called our own
the meal we always shared and craved for
grabbing a bite there seems like a task
if only i had you right by me

awaiting in the line of people
at a certain spot we always say our goodbyes to head home
that certain spot where we would reluctantly depart
it was that spot where we laughed and talked
now, its a spot you carry with her =(

that night, one special night. 18.11.05
after a long day of laughter and a night of snapping
we had to depart for a ten day seperation test
tough it was that night to hold back these tears
hugging you tightly. i knew i ever wanted to let go
a place that its ours

the one opposite on that special night this year
i cried on you. you hugged me
it was so prefect, thou sad
why do nights like that turn to morning so soon
if only i could for a while longer

pigs we were pigs we are
ate alot craved alot and never failed tto satisfy each others tastebuds
thats us, ever so loving and ever so sweet
wasnt t right enough? guess the answer is no.

ice cream after mugging
childish acts in international places
fell in love with holding each others hands
sleeping on your shoulder the way home
nice the feeling, never will forget
esp the special oreo cheesecakes

your shoulders are always the nicest
those hugs to sleep, those kisses before tucking in
all the talks there and childish webbie games
we used to compete and i would lose =(

used to everything with each other deep down
for the love we shared for each other
now, for you its her. but its still you girl
i love you so bloody much

depressed

2006-02-18T15:15:00.000+08:00

sighs. i seriously hope this can be posted.

sorry for crying ytd. sorry for the attitude today. i dont know what overcame me. sighs. im feeling so bad to spoil your WONDERFUL day with her. im just jealous please. i hate this getting to no where feeling. waiting for you is something i will do willing. but if you know that may happen why not now? sighs. why must you be attached. to our third party. its worst at the thought. whats worst is this love isnt one-sided. so is it still my fault? whatever it is, people will also see it that way. "cheryl =girlfriend snatcher. beware!" the thought itself sucks please. sighs. not many know we were once together. ohh wells. contradicting these words. im a good gf. im a good gf. then if im so good, why leave. leave with another somemore! sighs. good also no one appreciate, bad people hate [like, duh]. why arent i the one who loving. why arent i the one you holding. i always question myself. since you love me too, why arent we together? sighs sighs sighs.

secretly, those tears just washed my face. the sun gloomed my day. talks made me lost and confused. they miss us. i miss us. you miss us. we arent together. we cant. ohh wells. seriously, this is getting into me.

if the road has to end sooner or later, why not end it earlier? that way, no one will be hurt by you, you will hurt no one. great isnt it. we were sent down here, do what we do and then die. money cant be brought with us, love cant be kept within us, memories just washed away with the soil 6 feet below. maybe my turn's here. since its now or later. that way i would have a choice for you. that way you may be happier. sighs!

BACK!

2006-02-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

SHH. im using this blog
so as to prevent any jealousy or stupid dumb dumbs reading it
BIG SMILES!

okay random since my last post
things been up and down
conflicts coming up
love over and over
regrets once and again
fun with darlings and my precious

ohh wells.
FINALLY CHERYL CAN BLOG HER FEELINGS AGAIN!
though the fact above, im speechless
mind going blank, all i know is

I LOVE YOU! XD
something i try so hard to live without
but it aint working out

misses.

broken

2005-12-24T04:09:00.000+08:00

this will be my last post here
changed my blog to
iamstuck-.blogspot.com

pms-ing

2005-12-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

cheryl is insecure
cheryl is struggling
cheryl is moody
cheryl is helpless
cheryl is restless

need chocolates, they make me happy

hate the cold lonely nights
hate swollen eyes

miss you!

2005-12-23T05:58:00.000+08:00

i miss my girlfriend!!!

shagged

2005-12-23T04:03:00.000+08:00

ytd had a match with nanyang girls at kallang
the fifteens almost won i think by a few balls
went to meet cousin and sis at city hall
had lunch at soup spoon in raffles city
ate like some pig finishing everything they cldnt eat
headed for queenstown
tried looking for my fbt's but only found few shops
and all they had were the larger sizes
dropped by ikea rachel wanted to get christmas boxes
whiched looked smaller den we all expected
sis got something too but duno how to call it
i was so shag i was complaining all the way
-smiles innocently-
walked to take bus 14 to suntec from there
slept in the bus coz i was so tired
went to the tankini shop tt rachel wanted to intro my sis
saw a nice tankini =D
walked past marina to millenia walk to a shop filled with candy and chocos
i ran when my eyes laid on the shop
hahaha
cousin and sis was shocked at my energy
walked to the esplanade from there to eat max brenner chocolate
three of us ordered a chocolate fordule [$20]
it was yummy
there were three types of chocolates: dark,milk,white
and there were few things to dipp in those
strawberries,bread,mashmallow,banana
yummy!! i finished all the dark choco
hahahaha it kept me hyper for 2 1/2 hrs only
walked ard marina and had carl's jr. for dinner
ex but nice esp dipping the lemon into sugar water =D
walked thru citlink and went home

had netball at school this morning
practically pulled myself out of bed =(
im so tired
everyone is saying that my eyes are swollen
and its not the first time
i've been commented for a few days alr =(
went home after trainings

netball madness

2005-12-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

tired and every bit of strength in me has been drained

slept at 3.30 this morning
supposed to wake up at 7 but iver slept
jac called at 8.15 to ask if i was still coming down
reached school at 8.30 fast aint i
had netball ran and played court game
went to tampines mall for lunch with amanda
and after that was at the airport
spent 30 mins trying to decide if i wanted m&m. snicker. or sth else
even called sis to help me decide
hahahaha
met up with jac at tanah merah mrt
while sending amanda to tamp mrt syab reached tanah merah our meeting place
means our mrt past each other!!
so cool
walked to kallang with syab while jac and ina went to bugis
training was fun
met them aft tt found out tt they went from bugis to marina square to suntec
just to help me get sth [thanks!!]
craziness in the train back

where are you?
i miss you.
feels so weird unable to hear from you
just miss you so
-prays-

my feet hurts so does my thighs-. =(

you and me

2005-12-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

had training in school today at 10
it wasnt the training i expected
the parade square was being washed and there were only 6 of us
not enough to even play half court
so we decided to go and run
ran only two rounds coz my thigh pain
we dismissed ourselves at 11.30

went to meet girlfriend
had lunch at her mother's shop
the food was nice dont worry =D
and yes it was up to expectation
just tt the pork rib stupidly got stuck in my teeth
hahahahas
next time must be the cook instead ok
mug at her house for a while

i realised i love you alot way way too much
deep down im afraid someone will steal all these away from me
i dont want to lose any of these
im selfish i admit
wish you are right beside me now
i love you! -kisses-

i really just want you for christmas!!

girlfriend!!

2005-12-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

[back from dinner]

i miss my girlfriend terribly much
she made me smile silly when reading her friendster bulletins
some of the answers larh not all
i love your everything!!
-HUGS-

p.s. I LOVE YOU and YOU ALONE!!

oh ya did i mention
this silly here doesnt wana exercise
even thou she is so gaining weight
thank goodness you didnt sleep again after lunch
anyhows i love you all the same

ikea

2005-12-19T10:35:00.000+08:00

went out with dad.mum.sis
had lobster porridge before heading out
smelt weird but tasted great!
we went to ikea dad wanted to get something
the queue of cars going into the carpark was long
and cheryl the restless one counted
25 cars in the queue
parked somewhere else
we ate a hotdog and had a drink each
shopped and so tempted to redo my room
dad promised after cny he will do it with us
-smiles super wide-
bough a tea table which was to be assembled ourselves
two parts to it
it was pouring cats and dogs so we went to wrap the boxes so sad to not get it too wet
den the rain stopped
carried one box all by myself -smiles proudly-
grabbed a snack to eat and bought home food
okay dinner's served im gonna eat

ting jun!!

2005-12-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

went to get my atm card done in the morning
played boggle before leaving the house

met up with girlfriend for lunch
saw her tattoo.. nice!
but cldnt touch it =( must wait a week or two
cant wait to touch and bua it
love thou we spent short time together
im still glad i could meet you
loves

went to meet syab. ina. jac
was abt 10 mins late
headed for kallang for the study awards thingie
reached there abt 20 mins earlier
slacked in the toilet
was talking abt seeing a psychiatrist
named myself DR C. KOH
which sounded like DR SICKO
hahahahas
anyways we were sitted by perlin she also gave us instructions
p.s. TING JUN IS SOO PRETTY!! [she was smiling at everyone]
okay.. back to the point we got an "award" each
all the netball singapore players. 21 and under. 17 and under
they all got "awards" cash!
while the 15 and unders got a adidas bottle and a pair of nike socks
how pathetic!!
ended the ceremony 1hr 15 mins earlier den scheduled
grabbed some food at the reception
den headed down with regina. jahan. syab to look for jac. ina at kfc
jac was so jealous tt i took picture with ting jun
-smiles innocently-
ate sth with 5 of them staring at me
den went to tm to buy wrapping paper and sweets

mango sale

2005-12-17T15:58:00.000+08:00

went to tm with mum and sis
bought a school bag
and went to the mango sale!!
didnt get anything
headed to town
went for dessert at n.y.d.c
the brownie sucks got walnut [huge large chunks]
-screams out loud-
wish if wld traste better
also ordered a cheese and garlic bread. mushroom madness pizza. new york cheese cake
didnt eat much
went to the big mango outlet there
spent abvout two++ hours there
bought a few tops
so happy with my buys
mum got a few presents and we went perfume smelling
hahahaha
dynk ladies- green apple smell
dynk male-celery smell -laughs like a hyena-
tommy girl- realised its floral
burberry brit- stinks like mad =x
ck be- ROCKS!! [smells like my girlfriend.. nice]
at lido while having a drink
we started talkinbg abt how to pick up someone's [dropped] shopping bag and make it ur own
of course without them knowing
went back to pasir ris to meet dad
had dinner at a japanese restaurant ard east coast
yummy but the portion was really huge
home sweet home played boggle

my girlfriend had a tattoo done today!!
not sure how to react when she called me to tell me
but i sure cant wait to see it larh
i miss you!!
loves -hugs-

mrs lobster loves mr lobster

2005-12-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

not a very hyper girl today.
more of a happy and red girl
-laughs barbarically-

met girlfriend kinda early in the morning
went to downtown swimming pool for a soak and tan
the pool water there is gross i tell you
the water taste salty -ewww-
was in there for a while before starting my tan
like at last i could tan!
after not sre how long..
we went into the water again
i made sweets piggy back me in the water
from one end of the pool to the other
-laughs barbarically again-
it was so fun aft tt it was my turn to carry her
i only did frnt and back one width
even tried to soak her head in the water
but failed terribly
we both tried to pull each other into the water
and i fell head in while doing so
came out and went to shower before lunch
we had sakura!! buffet!! [while we are broke]
funny thing caused by clumsy me
first was the lobster salad
i accidentally hit of the lobster on deco
while searching fo the mini bits of lobster in the huge fruits
second was at the ice-cream corner AGAIN
[caused some prob there too the last tym]
this tym instead of the icecream dropping into the toppings
the toppings dropped into the ice-cream
shh.. not to worry it was only a teaspoon =D

after tt headed to girlfriend's hse
fell asleep there
so tired netball ytd plus the sun today
totally drained me out
went home like some red lobster
had dinner den played boggle
it drove me mad

thanks for today
i really enjoyed myself
i love you mr lobster. -hugs-

im the principal

2005-12-15T10:24:00.000+08:00

okay i seriously needed to blog this
coz someone just told me how our school was painted
with this pic of the principal near the office
no offence but as if she did a big GOOD deed and have passed away

if i were the principal of the school
i will paint the school like a lot of drawings on the wall
a little a lot of vandalism on the walls
set an environment to make the students comfortable
yet like must make it suited for the students
and not for wad the teachers think is best
because its the students who are studying not them
even if its designed in a way like you just stepped into a club
so what!
as long as there's a line drawn between serious work and play
the classrooms can be done in such a way that it keeps outside noise out
and each classroom should be simple white with clean tables and stuff
like what is wrong with a cool and comfortable school
tt the students will enjoy
wont their results be better this way
even making them enjoying every moment in school

okay i noe im not the principal
i seriously hope this wld be agreed by someone

mr santa

2005-12-15T09:31:00.000+08:00

dear mr santa,

i would like singapore to snow this christmas!
here's my list of presents:
-tommy
-nike bag
-billabong bag
-fcuk tee
-ipod

santa, this should all i want for now.
in any case of addition i will send you another letter.
lastly i have to inform you that my house doesnt have a chimney

P.S. I HAVE BEEN A GOOD GIRL THIS YEAR!!

love cheryl

netball of kallang!

2005-12-15T09:12:00.000+08:00

the hyper girl

redid my nails this morning
-sulks- now they are chipping
due to the game later tt day

had training at kallang
me and syab actually but amanda. ina. jac followed
we had to board a bus to the singapore sports school
den the rest had to stay at kallang
i felt so bad larh. sorry guys
sat with syab there didnt noe why but didnt feel comfortable
and wished amanda and jac was there
they are more fun!!
at the school found out we playing against sports school
okay we got trashed for few reasons:
-they were good!
-we didnt noe each other well. cldnt communicate
someone made me a little piss during the first quarter
played the second third and fourth quarter as gk. wd. gk
oh my they are fast and energentic
play gk also pant like mad
wd sucks i stone half way during the game due to sudden headache
hahahahas
went back to kallang netball center
made friends on the way back in the bus more like got to know them better
something like tt anyway
we waited for bus 11 for 45mins
so decided to walk with our new friend "brandon"
he decided to go back to the bus stop half way
and lucky him he got on the bus =(
had fun on the whole
except for that certain someone

meet up with my handsome
we had teppanyaki [yummy!]
so long never eat suddenly missed the taste
went to get my dad's other half of his present
saw a nice bag from billabong
unsure if i shd get it
shall give it deep thought
headed for girlfriend's hse stayed a while before going home
thanks for meeting me today
so sweet of you!!
i love you -hugs tight-

im tired i want to sleep
MUG cheryl MUG!!
okay i shall mug
-angelic smile-

tommy!!

2005-12-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas is my two front teeth...

okay its 12 more days to christmas!!
i cant wait!!
hahahahas
i need scotch tape badly too
GOOD scotch tape
the ones at home suck big time larh

girlfriend was so worry when she got her x-ray results
there was a crak in her back
went back to the doc but he said it was nth
dun worry love
nothing will happen de
ok i missed a lot of fun parts
after collecting the x-ray
went burger from the nght market thou it was afternoon
the way the lady cooked it so cool
first time eating it not bad i say not bad
hahahas
but i ate it in a really messy way
while my dearest [aft seeing me struggle]
ate it with a fork and knife
went back over to her place to eat
watch loads of tv at her place [supposed to mug]
fell asleep through one of the shows
woke up and went for dinner
had mac yummy fries!! was craving for them
after dinner we played like small kids
hahahahas
i seriously enjoyed myself today huns
love love
i love you super much!!

ps to girlfriend, i really think the * made a diff
ps to cousin, i addicted to tommy and its all your fault!!

no schooling

2005-12-14T03:33:00.000+08:00

good morning world
felt like blogging
so here i am

no school books
no school bag
no school shoes

sound as if i have stop schooling
better get my books soon

off to see my girlfriend
off to see my girlfriend
lalalala
im so happy
cant wait soo cant wait!!

little miss late

2005-12-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

today was a totally fun day out with sis and cousin
we had lunch at pasta mania
finished all the cheese
den shopped around for presents
bought stuff for my other cousins
we practically cracked our brains over them larh
we walked alot and took a small break at coffee club
love the coco freeze there
den we three squeezed into a changing room at topshop to try clothes
and took few pics [mostly of myself]
after tt headed down to tangs
rachel said the pony bag was minah and tha fuck tee wasnt nice
okay she has spoken
hahahahas
went in search for a bag we saw someone carrying
saw this nicer nike bagbut no more money
headed for dinner at the big O
nice place esp the sofa
after walking around somemore we had dessert the n.y.d.c
the boney cake there is totally yummy!
walked to far east and took a bus home

i was called a cam whore the whole day
coz i just cldnt stop snapping
and little miss late was later den little miss late
hahahas

ps i left with 130 now im left with 40
wad a way to spend ur cash-- buy presents

i missed you
i would be there if i could
i love you

gf in pain

2005-12-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

im a useless girlfriend
my girlfriend is in so much pain
and all i cld do is ask how is she
im worried sick about her but i cant get out of the hse
i duno what to say to her now
i love her so much yet unable to look after her

ps, sorry

yawns

2005-12-12T08:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAC!!

bored at home
in my mind a voice asks me to mug
but i cant seem to get up and do it
girlfriend went to see a chinese doc
not news i wanted to hear made me worried sick
dad blew up at me during dinner like what the hack
but i knew it will come sooner or later

broke

2005-12-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

confession 1: I'M BROKE!
confession 2: I'M IN LOVE! [ok everyone who reads this blog knows tt]
confession 3: I'M HUNGRY!

im hungry now and just rejected dad to head down to bedok corner to eat satay
"cheryl do you know what you are missing!!" i keep telling myself now

town again today but with mum and sis
went to topshop to check out my skirt
didnt have it again
totally not fated with it larh
headed to taka mum blew up at us
coz i told her tt she was obstructing pp from walking by looking behind
didnt wana argue so walked away
splited up with her
went alone in search of presents
until they met up with me again
showed attitude to her for spoiling my day
but not for long larh
went to kino and got rachel her christmas present
went to eat at lido due to the wide choices of fast food
saw my netball "coach"
been seeing them one by one
hahahas
went to tangs fell in love with one fcuk tee and a pony bag
someone get it for me for christmas!! -hints hints-
hahaha jus kidding
after tt went to far east to shop for clothes
didnt buy any thou

i miss my girlfriend
her back hurts and its worrying me sick
her christmas present is giving me a headache
hahahas
tell me what you want ok
nono drop hints instead
please take care and miss me

candy canes

2005-12-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

went town with my silly
ate the chicken rice at far east
silly was looking for a job
so went to many shops walked and walked
it was fun thou everyone said no
except two shops but no confirmation yet
at far east we saw ting jun [this very pretty netball national player]
we were like oh my god!!
hahahahas

at topshop i saw the skirt i wanted
its a long story,
the first time i saw it i didt have enuff money
the second time i went back with money no size
today the third time have size but to money again
wah. so not fated shall head back tml

went to coffee bean to slack
you shd go view the pics in the links
so funny
ps i love candy canes
wahaha
we were fascinated by a corner in taka
took a bus back
we were snapping and snapping
den when silly was adjusting happened to look back
saw bubu she sqealed with joy bubu too den as i turned back i joined in
hahahas
bubu walked past us without even noticing
okay such a funny experience

anyways thanks for the day sweets
i really enjoyed myself
[thou u stepped on my toes a few times]
jus kidding
i love you
take care of ur skin alrights
*hugs

zoo

2005-12-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

had a match this morning with republic poly
few sec 3 netballers, amanda,zainab and my SILLY went
and guess wad!! we won!!
ps they are of older age more den half of us

i,silly,jac,sab,amanda
went to tanglin to have lunch
den headed to the zoo by cab
waited long for a cab driver to take 5 passenagers
but the down side was he talked a lot
and pls i seriously mean a lot
at the zoo we walked and walked
me and amanda was "oh my god soo cute!!" at the animals
we looked like kindergarden children on sch fieldtrip
hahahahas
i love the POLAR BEAR!!!
ok tt guy was so cute a wana hug it [talking abt the polar]
oh ya i belong to the giraffe's [silly said tt]
okay whatever it is i had super loads of fun
the trip back to tamp was real long
frm amk we sat at the door of the mrt
had to keep on changing sides coz the door opened is diff at each stop
hahahahas tt was fun
had dinner at silly's uncle shop
he wanted to treat us
but we all felt guilty
so put 20 bucks in the money box and ran
took neos with silly [smiles super wide]

i enjoyed myself today
thanks to all who brightened my day!

i love you sweetie
take care of tt skin of urs ok
kisses
p.s. you are perfect to me! dun think others look better coz i love you onli!

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY JAC!!
hope you like the present

netball!!

2005-12-07T20:04:00.000+08:00

smiles
today i had so much fun!!
first, i got to see my silly!!!
we had lunch together =D
but darl wasnt in best of shape
pls take care ok [hugs]
second, i got to meet the peeps
like so long nv see them sia
third, i got to play netball!
smiles widely

cant wait for tml
can spend the whole day with my favourite people
my silly and besties
pray tml dun rain

i love and miss you!

christmas. 19 more days

2005-12-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

"all i want for christmas is you.."

okay im alr getting into the festive mood
its like still 19 days away
hahahs
stayed home today
mugged a little bio didnt feel like doing my hw
in for loads of trouble if i dun finish them

i miss you.

shopping

2005-12-06T11:22:00.000+08:00

cut my hair ytd
shall give up the tot of rebonding its too ex
went shopping with mum and dad
ate sakae for lunch which was at 3
hahahas
den walked ard sis and i wanted to head for town for shopping
but it was too late and dinner had to be home
mum had a wedding dinner dad had a last min appointment
so onli me and sis had dinner home
how pathetic
ps, sorry darl cldnt meet u

todae is rachel bdae and the bdae of my newly-born baby nephew
ok i once again have became an aunt
sis and i went out for christmas shopping
but it wld have been more fun if darl cld join us
got few peeps present alr
got rachel a book search like mad in kino
such a big place to search for a book
also got ann mummy's and dad's x'mas present
i just enjoying buying stuff for people. smiles
still wondering wad to get for my silly
got some idea alr but still cant decided yet
pierced my right ear, sis re-pierced her closed ear-hole
dad gave me face when he found out
got many calls while i was out
kinda pissed me off not coz i got calls but the content of them

miss you silly
when we gonna eat ice-cream??
hahahas
cant wait to have lunch with u on wed. smiles
darls i pray tt ur job hunting will be a success
love you

dyed hair

2005-12-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

my baby is at tanning and im so lonely
nvm at least your having fun
went out with my parents and sis
headed for my god granparents hse
to pass them honey and some peanut cake
den went to my grandparents hse
also to pass them honey and peanut cake
show them the pics we took at china too
they were so entertained
went to parkway after that
for dinner and to eat ice-cream
sis was also craving but i didnt eat coz too full
dyed my hair when i came back home
the colour not very obvious
smelling like ammonia now

now you seem too be in so much pain
feel so useless that i cant be there for you now
hais =(
u just said sth very sweet
btw thanks for understanding the rubbish my mum is creating
i too am starting to hate her intolerable nonsense
anyways, i really love you
kisses

oh ya forgot to mention
just now god-grandma ask me if i got bf
in front of mum!!
i denyed den she ask to reconfirm i denyed
i looked at mum she gave me the thank-god-you-didnt-day-yes look
den god-grandma was like good larh
concentrate on ur studies now or u will regret blah blah
den mum said ya i told her to concentrate too
wad the hell!!

the grasp

2005-12-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

the grasp tt reassured me made me afraid

today was one boring day home
promised myself to mug
but i just just over lazy to do anything
i feel like eating popcorn
wana share an ice-cream too
and i desperately need to lose weight

just realised got loads of presents to get
1.rachel's bdae present
2.jac's bdae present
3.baby present for tuitor
4.present for a certain netballer[not sure who yet]
5.christmas presents
6.twin's bdae presents
and im almost broke now
those presents will burn a huge hole
but giving is always better den receiving =D

things i got to do
1.finish up hol hw
2.start on hol revision
3.lose weight by excerising
4.unpack my luggage
5.tanning [im to pale]
i havent started on the list
maybe besides the fact i almost finish unpacking my luggage

oh my goodness
realised i have been slacking my hol away
i gotta start mugging and fast
3 more weeks till start of sec4
so scary larh

i miss you
hope you are feeling better
do take cae of yourself ya
we shall get our ice-cream soon ok
cant wait larh
p.s. help me in chem soon alrights [you promised]

ice-cream

2005-12-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

i miss you!!

out with rach

2005-12-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

went out with rachel
she was going to buy my sister's christmas present
wah! like so long never see her larh
always mugging for sch
not me, her [DUH!]
but we met up onli for quite a short while
coz we both had appointments aft tt
looking foward to our next trip out
for now i sall be cracking my brain for ur present

coach resigned
found out the reasons why last nite
it was pathetic
esp the teachers'
cant they just spend some time to be present for trainings!
anyway what's done cnt be undone
all i can say is we lost a very good coach

homesick

2005-11-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

finally back from china after 10 days
was back last nite kinda late
went to bugis todae with my darling!!
thank goodness i was able to meet u
bought a bag and watched the preview of chicken little
chicken little was cute so were his friends
esp fish and tt orange lil thingie

as for my trip to xiamen, china
it was kinda okay
was there more for my cousin's wedding
ate weird things like
gluttinous rice in pig's blood
camel meat
goose soup
pig's tongue
just had a bite into them not eating it whole
even ate a 16 course dinner with a bowl and spoon
note: the bowl wasnt changed at any point in time
oh ya the housed we lived in was comfortable
nicely furnished even had a christmas tree
but we choked the same toilet twice
and flooded the whole toilet
went sight-seeing and to a bee farm
got to eat pure honey there
yummy!
learnt how to make honey too
this trip was enriching
learnt many things
but was terribly homesick as well as sick

i missed you so much in tt 10 days
cldnt wait to just come back and run into ur arms
i wld have done it today if not for the three extras =x
anyhows i still had loads of fun
duno how to express how happy it is to see you after 10 days
we passed another test and did it with flying colours =D
i love you
miss you as promised

as sticky as glue-

great dae wth darling

2005-11-19T13:50:00.000+08:00

had loads of fun todae
had tuition in the morning
den headed for town with my dearest =D
for the first time ever!! =D
had far-east chicken rice
nice but the rice was just way too hard
den headed for paragon
bought a few things here and there
saw pan ling ling. her husband. ivy lee. vivan lai
the three ladies super pretty larh
we also took pictures with the few footballers in frnt of heeren
i kissed one of thier butts
he must be feeling so honoured now
while my dearest pinched another's ass
the bus ride back was the best
we were practically snapping away
there was one pic i pretended to kiss
was took frm the side view
and the auntie beside me was looking at me weirdly
hahahaha
thanks for todae
was the best time i ever spent
i will miss you when im in bloody china
pls miss me too alrights
i cant wait to come back
i love you
we shall go eat fried mars bar next time

the truth

2005-11-17T16:47:00.000+08:00

heys guess wad.
cheryl caught the sneaked preview of harry potter!!!
okay
cheryl shall not boast
cools down
the movie is so nice!
ok larh actually but was better den the previous
smiles so wide
so glad i went to catch it before heading to bloody china
the nachos today were great
so long never eat
hahahaha
two things pissed me off
firstly was this guy/ger eat the thing super smelly
i felt like throwing up
so inconsiderate these peeps
secondly was my sis
she's a real scaredycat
mum sae scary den she didnt watch the whole of the nicest part
what the hell
mum also another one. nvm

thanks for the two great days
i treasured every single moment with u
thou u were sort of busy mugging
dun ever dun slp again alrights
enjoy the you-know-what
loves

new skin!!

2005-11-13T10:43:00.000+08:00

new blogskin up!!
im so happy with wad i achieved
fist time i didnt ask for help
smiles

if only. it didnt happen

2005-11-13T08:03:00.000+08:00

ytd went out to celebrate bubu's birthday
had pasta mania. cut cake. pool
was worried the whole dae
afraid a insane woman will call
realised so much ytd how much u meant to me
i seem to love you more and more
over and over
*prays

went to bedok reservoir to plant trees
more like seedlings
the whole class or most of us
were practically bend dowm digging holes
an placing the seedlings into them
th guys were plaing with this pink worm
oh my god
it was thin and long
trust me it didnt have lineson its body
hahahahaha
i, was the rubbish picker
i did do my part digging holes
didnt noe how to place those seedlings in so ina did it
`smiles
found everyone littering spoil tools and the plastic of the seedlings
so cheryl the "samaritan" went picking the litter
anywaes the whole experience was fun
just hate those who stand there doing nth
and thinking its all so cool like wad the hell

latest news on my trip to big CHINA
10 WHOLE DAYS!! 19-29 nov
my chinese better improve larh
i seriously hope china is fun
dun wana be bored to death

many things happened recently
i wana thank those who stood by me and understood my situation
love you guys!!

thank you for not giving up
time spend will be more soon
dun worry this crap will end
you are all i ever want
LOVES!

shopaholic again

2005-11-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

headed to century so mei cld cut her hair
den went to town todae again
hahaha
with mum and sis
like the third time in three daes
bought fewer things den ytd thou
regetted buying a top
shall get it another time
`smiles

a funny thing happened between mum and dad
this morning mum decided to go for a morning walk
but started pouring when she reached downstairs
so she went back up
used her hp light so as not to wake dad up
but ended calling dad instead
gave him a shock to see mum ringing him
he picked up not knowing she was beside him
mum even picked up and said hi
my goodness how toot can they get
hahahaha

just rmb sth scary tt happened ytd
when we had our grandpa's bdae lunch
thre was a man tt came knocking on the door
asking for the owner of the house
but everyone was present for the lunch
the weird thing was tt he didnt state who he was looking for
mum guessed tt there may be someone
who noes we have a new maid and we all have went out
such scary news
what if she had let him in [touchwood]
oh my god!!

uneasy without u next to me.
please come back soon.
someone misses u badly.

shopping!!

2005-11-06T15:57:00.000+08:00

had to go sch on mon.wed.fri
for chem which sort filled my hands with acid
but didnt go on mon coz i didnt noe
the experiments we did were fun thou

went out with zhen on wed to celebrate her bdae
she is taller than me!!
hahahaha
maybe coz of the slight heels in her shoe
catched up with her tt dae
hope to meet her again soon

had a flu jab with sis
the clinic was in this office building
so solemn den these two young girls in it
yes we were being stared at
even had to walk thru this "coffee hse" which was not enclosed
there were pp havin discussion
made me feel so stress coz it was such a quiet environment
anywaes..den headed for town aft the jab
walked the whole dae
my hand hurt so bad and it ached
even ran a temperature last nite with a bad headache
poor cheryl =(
was alright this morning

had a lunch family gathering this afternoon
my grandpa's birthdae
it was a dim sum lunch
didnt enjoy it a single bit
but found out from mum tt last tym there were nite shows there
tt featured topless ladies on the stage
i was like oh my
den mum commented tt now go online also can see no need come here
hahahahaha
but kinda sad coz aft lunch everyone just headed home
no after meal programme
supposed to go changi beach with cousins. an uncle and grandpa
but there was no news aft lunch
so headed out for town with mum and sis aft reaching home
bought loads of clothes im so happy with wad i bought
wahahahaha

fridays with darls

2005-10-30T06:58:00.000+08:00

went to the airport ytd
many funny things happen
first was this couple
one look they obviously werent singaporeans
they both were dressed more or less punk
the guy was skinny kinda young but had not much hair
the lady was fat and wearing a super short back skirt
oh my tian!
actually their dressing caught my attention the most
very black and exaggerated
second was a malay guy
noticed him coz he bought two burgers
when the announcemet was made tt they can break-fast
he ate 3 fries at a time
den he started on his first burger, machicken
den he continued with his fries
before his second burger, macspicy
he ate the second burger in 3 mins
by the time he finished his meal and left
it was onli 17 mins aft the announcement
oh my tian!
was so afraid he choked on his food
mum saes hey shd eat slowly or else not good for their system

went back to sch to get report book todae
`phew
i can be promoted
miss ng sounded kinda disappointed with my marks
but she put in a good word in frnt of mum
she the best form tcher aft miss siah!
hahahahaha
played mahjong with grandma. mum. sis. godma just now
took turns larh
i won so many rounds
beginner's luck i shd say
but sadly no money
stayed at home the rest of time
life after the exams are so boring

i totally dont wana go to china
for many many reasons
thou i can buy clothes just for the trip
im still not happi about it
somemore there's the avian flu
pls wait for me to be back in singapore
i promise to be back as soon as i can

a love so true.

5th month=D

2005-10-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

supposed to have netball training
whole sec 3 and 2 wanted to pon
but when they asked the tcher in charge
she said she wasnt inform of any training
we happily left sch. i went to airport
but when i was ordering my lunch
jac called and told me to go back to sch
got training and coach is coming down
so aft we ate we rushed back to school
it was raining so heavily
when we reached sch
ina sae coach isnt coming and training is cancelled
i was like wad the..
worst of all was we didnt do anything for the whole 2 hrs!

running under the rain was fun
was kinda unhappy needing to eat 2 dinners
had dinner outside and there was dinner at home too
so was to eat again
i wana go on diet alr!!
i'ver been eating too much
gona watch wad i put into my mouth
yes yes yes
super-ly need to get back into shape
argh!!! cheryl is FAT!!
hahahaha

thank you for todae!!
in a happi happi happi mood
wahahaha
shall go shopping soon alrights

*prays for u.

byebye billabong

2005-10-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

you'd not expect wad happened this morning
my maid spoilt one of my favourite clothing
and it was one i owned not even for a year
havent worn it tt many times too
i wana cry alr!!
she went to iron it on the highest
i miss my mother's ironing!!
i wld have blew up at her if not for sth tt calm me down
oh ya. u wont believe this
i've been treating my grandma alright
and as i walked out of the hse this morning
i suddenly have this hatred for my maid of tt for my grandma before
in the car mum even blamed me for buying the clothing
pushing all the blame to me
blowing up like some time bomb
anywae she's alright alr

had this business sitmulation course todae
it was one of the post-exam programmes
it was kinda fun esp the monopoly game
hahahaha
grouped with twins
were practically bankrupt half the time

went to airport with amanda.jac
had subway sandwich
yummy.. so long never eat le
the cookies they sell there are superb
after tt we played in the airport
but half the time we were walking aimlessly ard
we were so hyper
played in the skytrain acting like retards never sitting one before
wahahahaha

hope u like my gift
next time i shall bake one for u
but i shall make sure its edible
or else i will make and make till one is successful
thanks for loving me

mac post

2005-10-24T10:28:00.000+08:00

guess wad.. got my bio results
i failed by one mark. how pathetic larh
not very happi about it
had netball on fri!!
`woohoo
i missed netball so much
`smiles
weekend is here again

ytd went mug thou my exams are over
but it was kinda fun
i love starbuck's oreo cheesecake
a special someone introduced it to me
it was so yummy larh
im one person who doesnt and detest eating cheesecake
but i really truly love the oreo cheesecake
it was totally un-fun moving from one place to another
first went to mac ate and ltr when we mug got chased awae
coz there was this big "NO STUDYING" sign
den headed for bk got chased awae too
went to mary brown our last hope
chased out due to incoming dinner crowd
wahhh. but it was quite an experience

last nite mum was totally freaking me out
first she screamed into my ears on the phone
asking where was i
den when i reached home she came cool and calm
she even was concern for one of the peeps whom she dont really like
guess she realise they did more good to me than harm
i think she also understand tt i noe how to choose my frens alr
ya tts a great thing

went out with mum and sis to visit my maternal grandparents
they were so glad to see me; i was too
den after tt went to tm
nth much happened coz we were practically rushing home
coz godma needed to go church and mum needed to change shift with her

i love you.
i duno how to prove it to you.
i just noe u mean a lot to me.

the sotong

2005-10-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

didnt get any results except paper1 eng results
it was alright larh
school was boring shouldnt have went
played cards with twins. ina the whole dae
i kept on losingholding more cards den three of them added up
so blur they snap i onli stare
den penalty got to take the cards
so my stack became thicker
ina also veri slow
so we had a duel "battle of the sotongs"
who will emerge as the winner..
ina!! i lost again!
hahahahaha
miss lum also sang the class a song
coz she lost a game to this grp of guys

went roller blading this evening
had loads of fun
thou i didnt blade much
the company is what tt matters i guess
would love to go roller blading again with u
super-ly fun larh
wahahaha
played tag who will win one with blades or one with slippers
the one with the blades lost
i lost again! second time todae
the corners ard the walls were tricky
and the sotong was tricked again

thanks for the great time

pronounce. supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.
have fun.

memories

2005-10-20T10:54:00.000+08:00

got my end-of-year results
wad maore can i say about it
a girl with an average size brain in a class of smarty pants
u shd more or less have gotten a clear idea of my results
many pp didnt do as well as tot out to be
the air todae was gloomy and dark
[it wasnt due to the rain]

have a terrible splittin headache
my head is about to burst!
not sure wad is the cause of it
it due to the fact i walked under the rain
or may be coz this inconsiderate girl was runnin along the aisle in the bus
the whole floor was vibrating and she was screamin
`my god
it got worst when my maid doesnt noe how to cook proper porridge
grandpa had to do the cookin when he cant walk straight

did some thinking last nite before i slept
suddenly find myself kinda selfish over some matters
maybe just trival matters

just wish u were here

held hands

2005-10-19T13:25:00.000+08:00

marking day todae
school is so stingy to just give us one day
sure cant mark finish one larh

just flipped thru the bikini issue of a meg
i wana go tanning!!!
and go on a diet
been eating too much
way way toooo much
need to tone up alr
my tan skin due to lack of netball trainin is gettin fairer
oh my tian!!
i look lyke some gigolo
wahahaha

hold my hand.

silly in love

2005-10-18T12:19:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!
no more exams!!
im one free girl now
todae was the last dae of exams
im super happi tat exams are over super happi
`smiles

im one happi girl. super-ly happi

new blades.

2005-10-16T10:13:00.000+08:00

went out with sis.mum.dad
supposed to be home muggin
hahahaha
but it was a fruitful trip
i got a pair of roller blades!!
`woohoo
not the same one as the one i first saw
this one is so much much much nicer larh!!
so excited to blade
promised myself to onli blade aft exams
two more daes
be patient cheryl be real patient

leaving for china on the 18 nov
will be back on the 22 nov
dun miss me people
[ok. thou i doubt there wld be people missin me]
`wahaha
mum lets me work during the hols!
but i got to plan my hols well thou
coz i need to mug too
catch up with all my poor subjects
[which is practically all of them =x]

my the other half loves me alot.
`smiles

the raindrop

2005-10-15T12:25:00.000+08:00

one stressful week of exams over!
yeah im so happi [relaxed i shd say]
thou i still got a paper one monday
but im still happy but super enivous of those who end alr larh
life is so unfair
this whole week spoiled my whole year's mood
exaggeratin i noe
but the amaths paper 1 was horrible
even those who alwaes get A are failing
so nth much to expect frm a perpetually failure in amaths
also found out need two subjects plus eng to promote
wahahaha
tts great rite?
cheryl u can do it!
ok onli one papr left so not much of use
who cares anywaes

aft mon im a free girl again!!
`woohoo
i can go SHOPping!!
eat CREPE!!
go to the MOVIES!!
can play VOLLEYball!!
yeah yeah yeah!!
for those peeps who have major exams
jia you!! mug hard pp!! aft the exams u will be as free as me also
wahahaha
cant wait for netball to start again!
[super need a tan and exercise]
but heard that coach tore his arm muscle
hope he's alright.. we still owe him a medal

that day.. a raindrop fell on her.
a warm and loving raindrop.

shh.. dun break the silence.

the sinful dessert

2005-10-10T11:27:00.000+08:00

went out with mum and sis aft sch on fri
went to eat billy bombers for lunch
the American brownie is so yummy
warm brownie with vanilla ice cream on top
a very sinful dessert thou
went in search for shoes aft tt
needed a pair of sports shoes for netball
and a pair of sch shoes
saw this black pair of roller blades
BLACK!! omg so nice larh!
im gonna get it aft my exams

4 down 12 more to go
lyke how pathetic larh
so many papers for wad sia
dislike exams so much
the chinese paper on fri wasn’t as bad as i tt it wld be
2 out of 6 passages came frm tb
sort of regretted not listenin to mr yuan’s lessons
i’ve been sleepin `opps

got some not-so-great news
goin to china durin the nov hols for 5 daes
gonna attend my cousins weddin
we cldnt make it at first
but they insisted our presence nd pushed it back to ltr date
dad sort of felt bad and agreed
im so gonna have communication prob there
wahaha [mum will be worst she doesn’t speak chi]

thanks for the concern you showered on me
dun feel bad if you weren’t here for me todae
as long as i noe you care i’d feel so much better
love.

love oxygen

2005-10-07T06:28:00.000+08:00

had english paper i and ii
two down 14 to go
tts a lot more
hahaha
after the papers jac.ina.i were at the hut
we were lookin at the garden snails
ina picked it up i freaked out coz it was in front of me
i pushed her hand and it flew onto the floor
`opps
den me and jac started freakin out
we continue analysin the snails
they are super gross creatures i tell u
totally disgustin
`ewww
ina and i cldnt find the starfruit tree
even the sch uncle doesnt noe where it is
`goodness
maybe mrs lau bluff us but i really doubt

recently things have been slow
thinkin about lots of things
tt actually dwells down to one
but who cares anywae
maybe im just to sensitive
ya jus have this tot cheryl
"just be happy and you'll be fine" someone told me
my happiness is u so smile ok

*grasping another moment to secretly gaze at u"

my precious

2005-10-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

exams are this thu
time is really flying
i just pray that i do well
hit my targets perhaps
and after the stressful mind boggling 1 1/2 weeks i can relax
for now, i shall promise to concentrate
im not sure why
but i can really feel the stress in me this exams
first time ever im so stressed
thanks for everthing
i cant stop loving you
neither will i ever stop missin you
my pillar of support, please pray for me this 1 1/2 weeks ok
and silently hope for the best
our icecreamromance has been great fun
we shall do that more often ok
after ur exams we shall go everywhere to play
alrights
just the two of us
love you. =)

children's dae

2005-10-02T10:02:00.000+08:00

happy CHILDRENS' day!!!
to all young and those young at heart!

went to the spastic childrens' home
on thu and fri for cip
the whole sec 2 and 3 netballers went
on thu, we went to decorate the hall and sch
we blew up so many balloons till our hands ached
due to over-pumpin
on fri, we went to celebrate children's dae with the kids
there were rides game stalls and castle bouncers
all of us were spilted up
and i was a volunteer at class 17B with amanda
had to feed a girl was fully dependent on toiletin and feedin
had to feed her a slice of cake
breakin it to small pieces and put them in her mouth
she almost bit my finger
later i pushed this boy ard the sch t play games
he was droolin throughout the two hours
he cldnt play most of the games
coz the teacher said tt he wld grab things wo lettin go
some of the other children were real cute
after this experience
i may consider givin some of time volunteerin
went onto one of the castle bouncers
no one was there
amanda and i were jumpin lyke two kangas inside
first tym i went into one of those
hahaha. jac said i got a deprived childhood

life's been a bore at home
so mood-less to mug
kept noddin off too
duno what's gone into me today
new maid in the hse
not veri used to it yet
took me so long to get used to bein maid-less
and this one had to come along
but mum's load of house work will be lessen lots
she will be more relaxed den

` hold my hand and take me away.
wana be with you.

bitch

2005-09-28T13:09:00.000+08:00

just cant stand the sight of you
please dun treat pp around ur lyke ur puppets
they are human too
for all you know they dun respect you at all
just not going against your will
you are starting to get on my nerves
just disappear and there will be peace around here
maybe you are just to self centred
only carin about your own feelings

was super pissed with the person i described above
she totally spoiled my day lo
one day she will make me blow my top
soon enough
but for now.. i shall keep my cool

happy thoughts today:
=D first one to ur new addy and pw `woohoo
=D someone made me smile [that is a secret thou]
=D almost pass my bio class test by 1 mark
=D smile and i'd be happier ok. oxox

4 months + 1 day

2005-09-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

new pw and url
havent been bloggin for some tym
more lyke so long never blog le ba
many things been happening recently
erm where should i start..
the one week sch holiday has been superb-ly boring
almost home everyday
luckily went out to mug at the airport
was kinda fun thou i was just muggin
some things have cropped up in school too
firstly,
i am strugglin with my exams
lyke some pig whose sinkin in the ocean
wahaha
just hope im able to be promoted to sec 4 of the same class
*prays reali hard
secondly,
pp has started their nonsensical and chilsh gossipin AGAIN
reali have nth to say these pp have too much tym
but lyke what someone once told me
if you do what you think is right
den pp will change their opinion of you
you cant control the way they think of you but you can change that
thirdly,
i hope that the netball team will be bonded and united
yes yes yes
and maybe get a silver medal for ourselves as well as for coach
`www

have blogged this before
and shall do it again
wahaha
CHERYL is craving for CREPE!!
until now i havent got my cravin of crepe yet
and even imagine myself enjoyin a crepe aft my last paper now
i think im gettin kinda insane alr
hahahaha
cant wait for my crepe feast
wahaha

p.s. everyone pls pray that cheryl will do well
she will put every effort

thank you for being there for me
you are my greatest pillar of support
you noe dont you?
i will and shall stand by you lyke the way you stood by me
*nods. its a promise ok
my one and only one is you oxox
one more thing..
I KNOW!!
*smiles
you shd noe what that means *winkx

cheryl loves you

2005-09-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

nothin much to blog
was an ordinary sat
stayed at home
both piano and tuition tcher were late
hahaha
i was supposed to finish my hol hw todae
didnt have the mood
and every so often u appear in my mind
not gonna slp early tonight
determined to finish at least half of my hw

just now in the evenin
when mum was preparin to go for this dinner
with her side of the family
i was playing with makeup
sound more lyke a lil ger
hahaha
put some on too
but reali faint
maybe coz skin colour to dark

im missing u lyke crazy
wanna see u so badly
`sighs
i LOVE u alot
i wont let go..*hugs